Day 2

 It's day 2 of trying to stop smoking. I Tried to go as long as I could without a smoke and I made it about2 1/2 hrs before I lit one up...just to take the edge off.

  I've been chewing the gum, and it helps but some times it dosen't seem to be enough. I didn't really want to light one up but it seemed to be the only way to get rid of the urge. But after lighting one I felt bad, well, maybe not bad...just weak.

 When I got to feeling weak I tried to keep in mind that like the bible says I can do all things through him that strengthens me. And I made it a while longer before lighting up.

 I try to think of the reasons that I am doing this, for my grandkids, for my wife, my friends, family, myself, and the fact that I wish I had never started in the first place.

I called the Michigan Quit line a while back and one of the things they asked my was "Are you wanting to quit smoking because of the new law in Michigan banning smoking from resturants and bars"? And my reply was "No, all that did was piss me off".

 I don't know how this is all going to turn out in the end, but I do know the way I want it to go, I want to stop smoking, I don't want smoking to be a part of my life any more, I don't want it to control me I want to controll it by not doing it any more.

 I know it's going to be hard but I think I can do this. I just got to put my mind to it and when I fall down and light one up I'll just have to put it out and get back up again. I've told myself that if I can stop for 1 week then I'll buy myself an Xbox360 but I'll probably just end up buying some thing for the house instead. Or for the car, or maybe some more chickens...who knows.

 My plan for today is that when I wake up this afternoon to get ready for work I'm going to chew a piece of that gum first thing, maybe after I get some sleep and wake up after all that time without a smoke it will be easier. I'll have a bit of a head start.